A start to a fitness log

I know, sure there are ten thousand fitness blogs out there.   I don't know how closely this will be to any of theirs.   I just need an outlet to post my thoughts and progress.   I need some place to write.

I'm not selling anything.  If you find something that I use useful and use it yourself great, I don't have an affiliation with anything.  I'm only posting for me.

The problem is real.   I've gained weight and am back to as heavy as I have ever been.  It's depressing.   My wife is super supportive and is helping me to get back on track.   We are going to be following the 21 day fix food program from Beachbody.   We bought this a  few years ago and I had success with it once before.

Backstory.  I've been an on again off again jogger.   For me 10 minute miles are fast.   My whole life I've followed  a walk/run philosophy where I at least try to run more minutes than I walk.   I've never had great endurance.  I finished a marathon once, but never ran for more than 4 minutes at a time.   I may have one time run two miles straight without walking.

I've never been a physically fit guy.  I've always been bigger.  When I was young I had asthma and could not do anything without having an attack.  I probably let it be a crutch and let it hold me back.  I definitely did not develop strength or speed during my youth.

Excuses are done.  Now I'm just a 40 year old man who overeats and doesn't get enough physical activity.  I'm not trying to regain my glory days from high school when I was an athlete, I was never that guy.   I'm going to try to become that guy for the first time in my life.

The catalyst is probably a picture I saw of myself taken today.   I look aweful.  I stepped on the scale and I'm 250 lbs.   I know there are people who are heavier.  And when some look at me they probably think that it's not that bad.   It is though.  I've had a negative image of myself my entire life.  I've never felt that I looked good.

Goals: 210 lbs.  Able to run 5 miles straight.  Walk/run 10 miles.  Able to do 50 pushups straight.  Able to do 10 pullups.   Able to run 1 mile in <9 1="" goal.="" his="" is="" minutes.="" my="" nbsp="" p="" year="">
I will have a problem with this.  I know it.  I'm a very dedicated person, but I have a hard time going slow and staying in it for the long haul.   The struggle is real and I think I have picked goals that are hard and I will have to push myself to reach them.
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